Not much has progressed since my last entry. Though, as of yesterday, we do have phones. We’ve started taking our (better late than never) birthing classes and found that baby is (still) butt breech. There’s time for him to turn, but he’s been like this for a while. Then there were a few of those days. You know the ones, where the car you just bought doesn’t work exactly as it should, and you’re driving a lot. You’re worried about where you’ll live and how long it will be till there’s income again. Knowing there’s a baby and a new mom soon, who only just changed her first diaper on a dolly on Saturday. And trying to let go and go with the flow. If mom’s stuck on the breech, how is baby supposed to get unstuck? 

{yogi tea wisdom : via fieldy}
Let’s just say the irony’s not lost on me. And all of this non-acceptance and mind wheeling mechanical worry has given me the first hives of my life and a wicked cold. Two days ago I thought the world was about to end—or that it never would. I’d been listening to the “advice” of other pregnant mothers who had weathered colds: It’ll pass. Tea. Soup broth. Tissues. It might take weeks; be patient. I started to imagine trying to labor in that condition, impossibly. I stayed in bed a day, while S cooked and mothered me as best he could. And I already feel better. The worst of it lasted only two days, though no over-rejoicing and jinxing my good fortune here. 

Then the pitter-patter of hiccups, which I swear resonate from the lower part of my womb… Maybe it's progression after all. 


Hollie said...

oh, the baby hiccups. I forgot about those! I'd never even changed a diaper prior to giving birth. Turns out that all of that comes naturally.

this free bird said...

oh honey.

deep breath and breathe.

and tea.


Claire Kiefer said...

Sorry that you're not 100% better and that lil baby's breech, but so glad I got to talk to you last night.

NEVER CHANGED A DIAPER??? I'm amazed! How on earth have you managed that? Turns out I'll be able to help so much, cause after all these years of babysitting brand newborns up through toddlers, I've dealt with almost everything (except breastfeeding, of course, haha). I know lots of tricks and I will be right near you!

love you.

OneCraftyFox said...

Oh, this is such a beautiful post. The roller coaster of motherhood and life. I say, listen to the teabags in the photo, they give great advice ;)


LyddieGal said...

Things will fall into place. Both of you will get turned in the right direction. Just keep believing it, and it will happen.

Chic on the Cheap

E. Charlotte said...

I know what it's like to be overwhelmed, but you will do just fine. :) Everything will work itself out like it's supposed to in due time. Just breathe. :)

Dawn said...

Oh hugs!
The "hiccups" are just starting...but they are ALL worth it.
Every one!

Krystal said...

You will be such a good mommy even if you have only just started changing diapers! It's not even the end of the world if it's not right. You will be fine..breathe lady!

LatteLisa said...

take care Heather, and be patient, life is full of wonderful surprises ;-)

Signe said...

Hope you will feel better soon and I have never changed a diaper in my life either! Wonder if I'll ever learn :)


gracey said...

tea cheers and take care Heather!

Anonymous said...

I hope you feel better soon! ((hugs))! ~a

Casa Très Chic said...

I'm sure you'll be better soon.
Everything will gonna be allright.

Rachel Elizabeth said...

Oh, I miss the baby hiccups. Don't worry, I had no idea what I was doing before my daughter was born and so far she is healthy and happy. You'll figure it out. That's the fun part.

Anonymous said...

sending you love, my dear!

xo Alison

kelli g. { bug miscellany } said...

baby hiccups? aaaw!

hang in there! :)

Jude said...

I totally believe everything will fall in place for you - and that you'll be such an amazing mommy! Hope you keep feeling better and better (and so sorry to be MIA, been traveling and off internet, sloowly catching up now :)).

Wishing you a much lovelier week ahead!


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